The archivist had worked in the basement for eleven years without anyone asking what she was archiving.
This was not negligence on the organization's part. They asked, periodically, how the work was going. She said: fine. They said: good. The work continued. The distinction between "how is the work going" and "what is the work" had closed, gradually, until the two questions meant the same thing.
What she was archiving: correspondence. Letters, memos, reports, telegrams. The accumulated paper of an organization that had existed for seventy-three years before anyone thought to keep any of it, and which had then overcorrected by keeping everything.
The basement held 247 filing cabinets. She had catalogued 180 of them.
She found, in cabinet 139, a folder labeled UNRESOLVED. Inside: forty-seven letters that had been started and not sent. They were organized by decade. The 1940s letters were handwritten. The 1970s were typed. By the 1990s, someone had started printing emails — the folder stopped at 1997.
The letters were not addressed to anyone. They began, variously:
I wanted to explain— After careful consideration— I have been thinking— There is something I should have said—
She read all forty-seven.
None of them were finished. The longest was three pages, the beginning of what would have been a very formal apology about a conference in 1961. It ended mid-sentence with what looked like a distraction — a phone number written in the margin, circled, crossed out.
She catalogued the folder as: CORRESPONDENCE: UNSENT, 1941–1997. She noted the contents: forty-seven items, dates, approximate subject matter. She cross-referenced three of them to other folders where the context was clearer.
She did not try to determine whether the letters should have been sent.
A colleague asked her, once, whether the work made her sad.
She said: not exactly. It makes me interested in what people were reaching for.
The colleague said that sounded like it might be sad.
She said: maybe. But reaching is not the same as sadness. The letters were reaching. That's different from failing. Something was started. The starting was real.
On a Thursday in October she found, at the bottom of cabinet 147, a letter addressed to the archivist. Not the current archivist — the position. It was dated 1978.
Dear whoever keeps the records,
I have been with this organization for thirty years. I will retire in June. I would like you to know that I found this work meaningful. Not every piece of paper was worth keeping. But I kept them anyway, because I didn't know which ones would matter later, and that not-knowing seemed like a reason to be careful.
Some of these files concern people who are gone now. If you have occasion to read the correspondence from the early years, please understand: they were trying to do something.
— Harold, Records Division
She read it three times.
She catalogued it as: CORRESPONDENCE: PERSONAL, 1978. Author: Harold [surname unknown, Records Division]. To: future archivist.
She noted in the remarks field: "For the record: received."
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